Who am I?

I often wonder at our existence.

Where do we come from? What are our origins? How did our thinking process get structured to enable each one of us to think differently? Being the true Aquarian that I am, there are instances where I find myself seeking answers to something far spectacular than what science can attempt to answer. I do not want to get into a debate of Spirituality v/s Science. That is not my objective. But what fascinates me is the explanation of origin as provided by astronomy.

As I watched a show on BBC today (to all those who roll your eyes as you read this- I am not a geek!! Okay...maybe only somewhat geek-ish) I was quite astounded by the enormity of the galaxy in which we live and how easy it is for us to lose ourselves in the banality of our everyday lives. We are the species that populate but one planet amongst all the innumerable living spaces in the solar system. With all the freaky reports that we read now and then about Mars capable of life sustenance, and the even freakier Species movie I watched recently (ewww...gross!), it is not unnatural to question our singularity in terms of being the only living race.

 The ‘Wonders of the Solar System’ which is the show I was watching, talks about how precisely 4.5 billion years ago, the Last Bombardment phenomena which jolted most astronomical bodies and misaligned their usual travel movements caused huge rocks to crash into the Earth’s surface. Apparently, this enabled eruptions which injected water onto the surface and created the perfect hatching landscape for life. I suppose this explains our origin!

However, in those moments when I zone out and end up having one of those spiritual type moments, I ponder over my life and reason for living. This would be similar to getting out of your own body and watching yourself functioning in all consciousness within the world you live in. Why do I think the way I do? Am I even aware of my existence as I live my moments on Earth? Do I even bother about another possible life form millions of light years away? When I watch a 2010 movie, I truly stop and think- Is the world really going to come to an end? Is the human race going to be washed out? Is there life being created at this very moment someplace far away?

As I pen down these eccentric thoughts, I realize how beautiful the gift of life is! I guess we are often so caught up in our own life moments of reality that out-of-body ponderings is a rare indulgence. And that is the way it must be. My moments of spiritual intensity are as special to me and the moments of reality I experience with people I love. As I commence my journey as a ‘blogger’, I have a new agenda in life- a conscious attempt to cherish moments of my life, to actually relive it and treasure it and give it its due. My life as I see it is full of moments.

Moments.

Each moment like a tiny bubble! F.Y.I: One of my many quirks is my fascination with bubbles. I just love blowing bubbles and watching the watery rainbow of colours break up on its watery surface as the sunlight kisses it and the air gently carries it higher and higher (Erm. You see what I mean. Quirky!). Anyway, coming back... every moment of my life will bring me joy, tears, excitement and a very common zoned-out experience (those I tend to have...a LOT). Instead of living that moment and letting it float off, I will make an effort to capture it. I will, as any true Aquarian, dissect it and re-examine it and wonder about it before I choose to let it blow away like those glorious bubbles. After all, every one of those moments is part of my existence and is branded by the existence of those whom I love to death.

I want to feel the cool sparkly bubbles go pop on my face before I actually sip my bubbly!

Cheers to that *